If I’m not working, dealing with family matters, or answering calls and texts from work in my “time off”, I’m struggling through my anxiety to fall asleep.
There’s a nice wall over there that the people with leisure time can feel free to line up against. I promise to make some time to see that. Won’t take a minute and they’ll find the experience a blast…
We live in a world that has people and those people have names.
Who gives them those names?
Who’s gonna do it? You? You, reader?
People with my name have a responsibility greater than you can possibly fathom. You weep for men with lesser names. You have that luxury. You have the luxury of not knowing what I know.
That their names, while tragic, probably saved lives. While their names are grotesque and incomprehensible to you, they save other people from having those names.
You don’t want to know about my name because deep down in places you don’t talk about at parties, you wish you had my name, you need to have my name.
I mean, in last night’s dream, I was Batman, pretending to be a depressed member of a team of American teachers on loan at a Hogwarts-style school as part of an exchange program (programme?).
But that was just in the last of my dreams last night.
Not to mention all the other dreams I’ve had over the course of my life, most of which involved an occupation of some sort.
And that one nightmare involving cannibalism… Couldn’t eat for days after that one.
[Shudder]
So I really don’t know how to answer that question.
I guess I’ll stick to last night’s dream, where my American colleagues and I were dealing with entitled upper-class British gradeschoolers.
Right proper little terrors, they were.
I bore more than a passing resemblance to Christian Bale (so a bit of a step down for me) and was pretending to be so overwhelmed with grief that I couldn’t leave my chair, let alone my room.
But another American teacher quit, utterly overwhelmed by the poorly behaved students, and the team leader was forced to call for me.
When I say poorly behaved, I mean truly poorly behaved.
A loud, chest-high mob of writhing indignation and giggles.
Almost to the level of cannibalism nightmare.
(In fact, it wouldn’t surprise me if the dining tables they were swarming around were festooned with human flesh!)
The dream ended with me holding a candle while wearing a glowing crystal skull over my head. I walked past the entrance to the crowded dining hall, and all the rowdy students fell silent.
Fewer meetings would helpfully reduce the clutter in my schedule.
I have so many meetings that I can’t get anything done.
Not that I won’t still be held accountable for that stuff.
And when those meetings aren’t back-to-back, they have a gap of 30 minutes between them, so while I’m technically free, I still don’t have enough time to get anything meaningful done.
Sadly, the only way to reduce my meetings is to get fired (dear God, I hope not) or quit/retire (can’t afford to).
Guess it’s time to start playing the lottery.
And don’t get me started about the physical clutter in the house!